I made my big scary move...and now I'm here. Waiting. Waiting for it all to start. I certainly didn't think I would jump right in to a fully functional adventure...however, this does not dissuade my eagerness for some purpose. I am in life limbo and attempting to enjoy it like they say you are supposed to. Of course that never really works, does it.
My excitement and vigor is as volatile as teenage hormones. I enjoy the good things for as long as they feel enjoyable. And then I get bored. What else, what else? An Adventurous gypsy would think outside the box. She would make her own adventure. It is this realization that reminds me that I am trying very hard to play a part that wasn't originally assigned to me. But I want it, so I'm getting into character.
If all else fails, I work out, and then I clean. Thank goodness for busy work. As much as it has cultivated a large amount of disdain for EVER being a stay at home mom, it is keeping me...useful. As I am a welcomed guest in a very not-mine apartment. I have a very sweet boyfriend who speaks in inclusionary statements, lots of "we" and "our." That takes a large amount of the edge off but doesn't change the facts.
decided that this might be uplifting for you, as it was for me.
ReplyDelete“Whenever my circa 1993 friends and I would sit around and discuss the future, there was always the omnipresent sentiment that the world was on the decline, but we were somehow destined to succeed individually. Everyone felt they would somehow be the exception within an otherwise grim universe. This is why Ryder had to pick Hawke. Winona made the kind of romantic decision most people my age would have made in 1994: she pursued a path that was difficult and depressing, and she did so because it showed the slightest potential for transcendence."
Sex Drugs and Cocoa Puffs, Chuck Klosterman.
here here. Well said.
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